FEELING UNLOVABLE

Guys, ill be on leave for my vacation and for blogging post but i will post some.. I will be leaving sad and search for the world to unwind and to discover this up… Why is it unlovable? I am at the point that you feel yourself alone, you feel that no one is thinking of you.. maybe its was really hard to understand but i need time to see whats on around me……here is a song from DArren Hayes “UNLOVABLE”…PD.. some of the previous post are deleted for a private reason.. Sorry for some people…

Are my lips unkissable?
Are my eyes unlookable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Am I unlovable?

Cynical, jaded, faithless, disappointed, disillusioned, used
If I could take back all my sweat, my tears, my sex, my joy I would
My time, my love, my effort, passion, dedication
In case of mistaken identity I gave these things to you
If I sound angry, bitter, sad, infatuated, it’s the truth
Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, just a few
Stages of acceptance that it’s really over
It’s just so complicated and I’m stupid for believing in you

You make me feel like my father never loved me
You make me feel like the act of love is empty
Am I so unlovable?Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don’t like?

I had your back, I held you up, I told you you were good enough
It was not reciprocated, you kept affection and yourself apart
You fed your love to me like crumbs to pigeons in the park
Sometimes I think you’re satisfied to see me begging like a dog
I wasn’t armoured, you were king, I gave my everything
Because sometimes you showed me just a hint of you and then
For just a moment I romanticised the notion
I can take away the torment, I can love you like they never did

You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me)
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty)
Am I so unlovable?Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don’t like?

You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me)
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty)
Am I so unlovable?Is my heart unbreakable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you despise?
Are my lips unkissable?
Are my eyes unlookable?
Is my sex undoable?Am I unlovable?
Are my words unlistenable?Are my hands untouchable?
Am I undesirable?Am I unlovable?

You make me feel like my father never loved me
You make me feel like the act of love is empty
Am I so unlovable?Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don’t like?

You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me)
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty)
Am I so unlovable?Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don’t like?

You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me)
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty)
Am I so unlovable?Is my heart unbreakable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you despise?

You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me)
You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me)
You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me)
You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me)

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* In every moment in our lives. We encounter someone in our journey. Someone that are really good samaritans. People that needs your help, support and your time. And you in the same way, you need them… And along the way, you will choose what will be the right stones to bring on… The big stones but it will be hard for you to carry them, or a small stones that makes your journey easier….Its up to us to choose as long as at the end we will really cross that bridge that we are walking… If you couldnt pay right now.. Pay it forward”

–> this phrases is dedicated to the good samaritans that we meet in our lives, and to a special friend.

~ by neilstrauss23 on July 30, 2006.